New Year, New Start...

2020.

I had hopes you were going to be better.

Yet here we are still in the first week and already I have been to two funerals!

Being the first Christmas and New Year without my Mum or Dad I just stayed quiet and tried to get through it. Then at the weekend I finally made a start on their house.

My mum was a bit of a hoarder. Marie Kondo would have a breakdown if she saw it.

I decided to start small, going through all the drawers in my mums room.

When I got to the bottom drawer of her chest of drawers I couldn’t help but laugh.

There underneath a ton of random things was an ‘Essential Guide to De-Cluttering Your Home"‘

Also there, were some seriously industrial-sized bottles of Holy Water from Lourdes. I think one of them must have belonged to my Gran. Needless to say, she was a wee bit of a hoarder too.

I wonder if I splashed myself liberally with the stuff it will help me with my own tendencies to hold onto everything.

My Mum and Dads house is like a museum of our family life.

Now I have to try and dismantle that museum.

I understand that our memories are within us not within things but that is hard to rationalise when everything in every cupboard has a memory attached.

To be honest I’ve been seriously wondering if I’m going to be strong enough to do this.

Then yesterday I read Queen Michelle’s post and the comments from Lynnie and Linda B and it was a revelation.

It genuinely felt like a lightbulb going off above my head

If I am physically stronger it will help me be emotionally stronger and able to deal with everything.

Michelle has used the word ‘empowering’

That is going to be my word of the year. I need to be more empowered.

A stronger body, stronger mind and a good sprinkle of holy water should help me become just that.

Queen Marie

xxx